"To Create an Orchestra"
August 1997,
The village of Slaveykovo, near the town of Dryanovo
I often heard people say "she's hopping mad!"
Who knows. They might have been right.
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If I decided to write about it now when it's still too early, when what happened is still close to me, it is because of the chaos in my mind. Memories unexpectedly rush into it, hundreds of them flooding back. They're in a state of confusion. I hope words will help me put things into order and thus help me get rid of the demons... I remember the frogs in Kurasawa's autobiography, I have the same feelings he had. I don't want to look in the mirror. But my wish to tame the demons is very strong...